Today's poem is by Lee Ann Roripaugh
Currency: A Mapping / Jishin-no-ben
1.
What you don't want is for your mother to feel lonely
so you sit with her on the phone when she speaks Japaneseeven though you don't understand. Honto ni? you say
when she pauses for breath, imitating the various cadencesof the phrase remembered from childhood when
she spoke with friends. Secretly, you used to think of it asthe language of birds. You match the inflections of her voice:
quiet and conspiratorial, surprised, outraged, scoffing: Honto ni?Sometimes it works for a while, but always, as in English,
her tone becomes keening, aggrieved, and she turns on you.
2.In fall, the house sparrows flash-mob and flock
in your backyard bushes and trees, splashinglike hopped-up lotto balls in the bright puddles
of rain glazing the asphalt in your alleyway.They form a tiny horde with the same tyrannies,
the same totalitarianisms, as the year before.They are ruthless: smashing eggs, murdering chicks,
in their fight to stake out nesting sites. They shriekand keen and cheep: what your mother used to say
was the sound of pichu-ka pichu-ka bird singing.
3.You can't know what you don't know when your mother
excoriates you over the phone in Japanese, but there are wordsyou recognizebaka, for example, or bususpat at you
in the same contemptuous tone she uses to spit them at youin Englishstupid and uglyshortly before she slams down
the receiver, yanks the phone cord from its socket. You thinkof the linguistics of electricity, how currents can be translated
into watts, volts, amps, and ohms, how the currency of energyis different in other countries. You think of the rain of sparks,
electrical fire, when plugs are jammed into the wrong sockets.
4.Because the only thing you do for your mother that's ever
made her happy is to provide her with an infusion of cash,because no amount of cash you give her will ever be enough,
because she doesn't actually want to spend the cash justhoard it and hide it because then it will be all hers and not
yours, because when she can't find the cash she hidesshe likes to accuse you of breaking into her room while
she's sleeping and snitching it, because you are, she tells you,a complete useless, and because you just want her to be happy
you send her envelopes fat with stacks of fake currency.
5.This used to be your favorite time of year: how the currents
of the river become chilly and more muscular, dappledwith yellow leaves that seem like bright fish bur aren't; the way
house sparrows raid the black currant bushes in quarrelsomethrongs then attach themselves to the upstairs window screens
with their tiny feet, plinking and strumming the steel meshlike atonal guitars, while the cats slowly lose their minds inside;
how night's dark spill of hair is silvered by cool threadsof wind; the feeling of autumn like a circuit of electricity,
a golden tourniquet tightening around summer's end.
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